By:
Laura Stephanie Villamil Martínez.
2019.
I really don't know how to
start, I want to write it but I can't find the words to do it, I think so much
and I want others to share the same.
It all started on a Monday
when I went with my family to a medical appointment and we told her the reason
we were going: "all because someone said she looked pregnant, I am not, I
have never had a relationship with a man" then the doctor asked me to go
to bed to examine me and what she found changed everything for me...
“Something feels hard under
the stomach, possibly it is the uterus with MIOMAS (benign TUMORS)” TUMORS!
That word alarmed me so much, I got scared, I froze and as soon as I finished
examining the doctor, she told us: Do an ultrasound as soon as possible and
that's how everything happened; the studies at the end determined that I had
MIOMAS of more than 20 cm and that was what made me look wide and fat. All my
life I thought I was fat because I am but who was going to imagine that I would
be with something like that inside my body? So much so that he gave me an AND
(Anxiety not diagnosed, I still have it, but I do drink a lot of tea and that
has helped me much); I still don't think it has been 6 months since that
diagnosis.
It is (and I really don't
know, God forbid) the first time in my life that I have a surgery: a total
abdominal hysterectomy with Salpingectomy, I can no longer be a natural mother
because they took out my uterus, my tubes were closed and all matrix; I really
thought about having a relationship in the future and giving children but first
my health is above anything else. I think all the time about how it has
affected me, I decided to share it because I wanted to do it and say: THAT IS
NOT ABOUT BEING A WOMAN! I AM MUCH MORE! Let's not let this define us but I also
want to say WOMAN EXAMINE YOU!
It's been more than a week
since the operation and I don't know how I feel because it is a mixture of
emotions: happy, scared, anxious, nervous, the pains are still feeling,
curious, etc. What gives me the most and makes me think a lot is that it all
started with a question asked by an airport assistant who looked at me
curiously "are you sure that are not pregnant?" What would have
happened if had not done that Question? What would have happened in the future?
All for a simple question.
Do not expect it to happen,
simply WOMAN EXAMINE YOU and if it does, do not let that mark your whole life,
you are much more than you appear; That is something that they have always
taught me and now I will practice it much more ... that is all.
Thank
you.
